At some point in life we all experience a level of uncertainty. Unfortunately certain levels of uncertainty can alter our pursuit of dreams and aspirations. It’s at these points that our minds become clouded with doubt forcing us to question our ability to overcome.
Growing up I allowed my mind to run free. I dreamt big, but why not? I knew that anything I had ever desired had it’s own route and I had a choice whether to pursue it or not. I always saw chasing my dreams as a way to challenge my mind rather than looking at it as a way to become successful. I didn’t care about money, I just wanted happiness. Every obstacle presented a new way to push the limits of what my mind was capable of achieving. In fact, there has never been anything more gratifying than achieving what others didn’t believe I could. Shame on them for underestimating me.
Everything was perfect; I was sitting on top of the world. But what do you do when your world crumbles right before you eyes? Better yet, what do you do when you know there’s nothing you can do to stop it? I watched everything I spent years and years building wash away in an instant. My home, my relationship, my standing at work. It was like a bad dream that I was just waiting to wake up from. This couldn’t be real. Everything and anything that could have went wrong did. I was lost, confused, heartbroken and devastated. I tried painstakingly to hold it together, but even I wasn’t strong enough to do so. All I had left was my ability to believe. To believe that this was God’s plan, to believe that I would find strength amongst it all but most importantly to believe that no matter how hurt I was, I would overcome everything.
It was the furthest thing from easy, yet every day was an opportunity to rebuild. I kept focused on my dreams and never allowed my experiences to outshine my end goal. I dug deep within myself and pushed every limit of what I ever thought I was capable of. I didn’t know how to quit; my mind wouldn’t let me. The pain didn’t just disappear, instead it remained for some time as a reminder. Yet I knew that one day the pain would subside, and pave the way for a greater appreciation for life.
And so I’ve learned quite a bit through my experiences in life, yet none more important than realizing how powerful the mind is. It defines our intelligence, serves as a storybook for our past and vividly portrays the future we yearn for. Beyond that it has an ability to shield us from doubt and negativity. You see, we serve as the filter and our minds listen to our beliefs. The more and more you tell yourself something, the more likely you are to start believing in it. I believe God brought me to those points in my life for a reason. I may have not understood why then, but I most certainly understand why now.
It has made me an even better person, a more intelligent and wiser young man, a more driven employee and I know for certain that one day I’ll love someone in ways I never thought possible; a love that will change their life as much as it changes mine.